Day 6: Concern about not having the ‘best’. Concern about not having the ‘best’ option for ME. Concern that I am missing out. Concern that I need to change/alter. Concern that I need to find something/someone new.

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– NEVER being satisfied/fulfilled.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be at PEACE within myself in regards to what I have, what I own, what I use, how I use it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to utilise so much of my ‘run time’, as thinking, checking, worrying, to what I could alter to be more satisfied/fulfilled, and NEVER being ‘happy’ or accepting of the way I currently do things/live with the devices I currently have.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be SETTLED with myself and the devices/things/people in my life.

I commit myself thus to WAIT until SOMETHING appears/someone appears, whereas it initiates a process for me where I DO in fact consider altering things in my life, changing things around, people, items, to best suit me with any newfound information, instead of just constantly fearing, worrying about what I COULD have, or what I potentially do not have, and thus believing myself to be ‘empty’ or missing out, simply as a fear.

I see, realise and understand that whatever items/devices/people are in my life/at my disposal so to speak, what remains is ME, and the change I can bring upon myself, no matter what potential changes I may want to implement, and thus I always have the abilities/tools to see if this potential change is legitimate/real as per something that will genuinely assist me, OR, nothing but a fear that pops up in my mind for NO practical usage WHATSOEVER, and ends up just leading me down a trail/spiral of concern, worry, fear, which I obviously accept and allow myself to follow/go down, as a path/spiral of concern/not being satisfied and fulfilled.

 

I commit myself to be GRATEFUL for what I have, the things in my life, the people in my life, instead of taking them for granted, instead of seeing them as ‘not enough’ or ‘not good enough’ – and instead of wanting to CONSTANTLY ‘upgrade’ and change, which I am giving too much of my LIFE toward, instead of working with what I have here, making QUALITY use of what I have here, to express to my maximum potential, exist to my maximum potential, and enjoy to my maximum potential, which I see, realise and understand I CAN do with my current life/tools/devices/people, and thus the ‘desire’ to change/upgrade is simply about not accepting/being satisfied/fulfilled with my current self/state/belongings.

Desteni

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